First off i just want to say i admire you for what you are doing. It is something special to see all of us directioners get together to help each other. It just warms my heart to know that so many people are reaching out to help those who need it. The boys will be so proud of yall. With that said i just feel the need to share a little bit. I had trouble with self-image, self-harming and trying to be perfect 24/7. Not to mention the family problems. (my parents got a divorrce whilst i was in fourth grade) Their divorce truly broke me and lead to most of the emotional issues i have/had to deal with. I was very lost. But once i found God alot has changed. In no way am i trying to force my religion on to anyone i just want yall to know how i coped with everything. My faith life is a rocky road and its hard to believe fully that God loves everyone for who they are NO MATTER WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE. God helped me realize that i am beautiful. But you dont always “hear” God say youre beautiful. Once i became a directioner loads changed. To hear the boys talk about how the fans are “their girls” and how all girls are beautiful has helped restore confidence in myself. They are five outstanding guys and their only flaw is that they dont realize how much they do for us directioners. Sorry im typing so much but i just have so much to say. I have a story just like everyone else and if anyone EVER needs help please speak up. Im relatively new to tumblr so i only have one follower…pathetic i know. But ANYWAYS, i struggle daily with trying to be perfect its and ongoing battle. I wrote a poem about it so i guess i will share it with yall. This poem is completely mine so if anyone ever wants to use it anywhere please give me credit:) xxx
I see crooked lines
I hear faded microphones
I feel torn fabric
Nothing can be perfect
Of all people I know
The pain and devastation
From the deafening blow
Of perfection
Of reality
Of failure
No one is perfect
Thats what I was told
But I never listened
I wanted to be bold
I learned my lesson quite a few times
I couldn’t accept the failure
To find
Perfection
It took a while
But I now understand
That being me
Is as perfect as I’ll ever
Be
I love you all and im here to help with The Carrot Project in any way possible. lots of love, katie xxxx